WARNING: THIS BLOG CONTAINS MOSTLY BITCHING, WHINING, AND SELF LOATHING.
I'm in a really werid mood. I'm mad but I'm not. I don't know. Every once in a while I have these moods where I don't like the way my life is going like at all. It usually lasts like a day or two. I'm in that mood right now.
The mood is caused by:
1. The fact that I'm a loser with very few friends
2. I hate the fact that I'm out of shape but lack the motivation to do anything about it
Lets address number one first shall we? Ok so I'm a loser with very few friends. The few people that do want to hang around me are people that I really don't like to hang around with and I find myself making up excuses to not hang with them. My lack of friends causes me to be even lazier than I already was. I spend most of my weekends watching tv and hanging out with my mom while everyone else is out having a great time with friends and doing all this stuff.
Number Two: I hate the fact that I'm out of shape and lack the motivation to do anything about it. I'm not technically overweight. I'm pretty much on the heavy side of average. But I could definitely lose like 10 pounds at least. I always tell myself that I'm going to get in shape but I always put it off. When I do get to the gym I just feel out of place. I can barely do anything on the machines. Today I found myself wishing I could go to the pool. Its not like I can't I mean I live right by it but me in a swimsuit? Not happening. I haven't been swimming in at least 2 years. I really want to start kick boxing but it costs a fortune.
I'm just not digging my life right now...
On a lighter note
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