God

Today sucks. I just found out that I am on academic probation AGAIN. I don't why my grades are so bad. I tried hard in all of my classes and I thought I was doing well in most of them. I was really only worried about one and I don't think that class could bring my GPA down a ton. But I guess it did. But the big problem now is that financial aid won't pay anymore and I cn't afford school without it. So now I am being practically forced out. Now I have to get a full time job, which means probably quitting my current job that I love with all my heart. I also have to pay for health insurance which is ridiculously expensive. My life is basically over is what I'm saying.

Legal Tender

Sick again. It sucks. This time I think it is just due to exhaustion. I haven't been sleeping very well lately. I just lay in bed for hours. My brain just won't shut off. I've also been pretty stressed at work. We have two new kids and our other two haven't moved up yet so that gives us 12 kids. It is pretty ridiculous.

So Idol was a shocker. I was pleasantly surprised when Kris won. I was pretty sure Adam was going to take it. I have a feeling Adam was pissed after though. He was so cocky from the get go he probably thought he had it in the bag.

My posts have been really short lately. I really don't have much to say.

I hope I get better by tomorrow. I have a ton of graduation parties to go to this weekend.

Another Little Hole

WARNING: THIS BLOG CONTAINS MOSTLY BITCHING, WHINING, AND SELF LOATHING.

I'm in a really werid mood. I'm mad but I'm not. I don't know. Every once in a while I have these moods where I don't like the way my life is going like at all. It usually lasts like a day or two. I'm in that mood right now.

The mood is caused by:

1. The fact that I'm a loser with very few friends

2. I hate the fact that I'm out of shape but lack the motivation to do anything about it

Lets address number one first shall we? Ok so I'm a loser with very few friends. The few people that do want to hang around me are people that I really don't like to hang around with and I find myself making up excuses to not hang with them. My lack of friends causes me to be even lazier than I already was. I spend most of my weekends watching tv and hanging out with my mom while everyone else is out having a great time with friends and doing all this stuff.

Number Two: I hate the fact that I'm out of shape and lack the motivation to do anything about it. I'm not technically overweight. I'm pretty much on the heavy side of average. But I could definitely lose like 10 pounds at least. I always tell myself that I'm going to get in shape but I always put it off. When I do get to the gym I just feel out of place. I can barely do anything on the machines. Today I found myself wishing I could go to the pool. Its not like I can't I mean I live right by it but me in a swimsuit? Not happening. I haven't been swimming in at least 2 years. I really want to start kick boxing but it costs a fortune.

I'm just not digging my life right now...

On a lighter note

65 days

Mine's not a High Horse

It has been too long. I have been so busy with school and work and such. But now school is over for the summer and I am stoked. I still haven't made my decision on dropping out yet. I'm waiting to see what my grades are. Not much else has been happening. I am currently listening to a song about being on a boat. It is very explicit and very funny. I enjoy it. I kind of feel like changing all of my blog titles to the number of the entry. It would make things alot easier. That is pretty much it.

Junebug

Life update.

I was in Pueblo this weekend for my brother's college graduation...what a great time for all of my relatives to gang up on me about the fact that I MIGHT drop out of school. My mom and my Grandma both got together and lectured me about that and getting a second job this Summer. It was retarded. I love how people think that constantly lecturing me will change my mind. It is my decision and mine alone. I'm just sick of people trying to tell me how to live my life.

So yeah. We left for Pueblo on Friday morning. My dad got a speeding ticket. When we got there we were all starving and cranky so my brother was mad at us which was not fun. We had a pre-graduation party that night. My brother's roomates family came over too. His cousins were annoying. I played Mario Kart on N64 the whole time. We stayed at a crappy motel and my mom snored the whole night so I couldn't sleep. Saturday was the graduation. My dad and I spent most of it making fun of people's names. After that we had another party and I didn't stay too long. I left with my grandparents so I could do my homework. So that was basically my sucky weekend.

Finals are this week. I have a 4 page paper to write and 3 tests to take. I have an English paper due next Monday for some reason. It is weird.

I just uploaded a bunch of cds I got from the library. I like them. This blog is pretty stupid.

I want to be in this band...seriously.